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here i am again,facing my pc and sipping coffee from my corn mug…the coffee tastes great,hmmm, it’ll keep me awake for an hour. I’m not yet sleepy though I feel so tired. No one’s txting me at these wee hours of the morning. Alex is still sleeping; I bet he’s gotta be drooling right now. (BTW, Alex is a male friend, we’re close buds, we’re like siblings.) He’s going to txt me at 5:00 am. that’s for sure!

for the meantime, while he’s still enjoying his slumber, i’m currently posting my 3rd blog on friendster. It’s a part of my daily routine to check out my FS account and also consume most of my time playing online games. I enjoy it a lot! However, it’s getting unhealthy for me coz I always end up sleeping at 5-6 AM. When i wake up at lunch time, I still feel tired and sleepy. During the lecture, our teacher always catch me yawning in front of her. I could do nothing  about it, i’m really sleepy. Maybe also it is because of my weight. I’m so overweight right now coz I don’t like to exercise. I prefer sleeping than exercising. I would only move a muscle if there will gonna be a soccer game for me to join in or if there will be a dance derby wherein I can participate…Oh, crap! High school days is over! I couldn’t play soccer anymore nor practice dance steps. Oh, how I miss our high school and college activities! Law school isn’t fun! We hardly laugh with each other’s comic antics. We look tired; it seems like we have aged like we’re already in our 80’s. The teachers aren’t cool anymore. It’s a sad thing also that it’s been more than 5 years that I haven’t practice my comedy flicks at someone. I became older, irritable and depressed. I don’t expect this to happen to me. I wanna be my old self again. I can’t even go to the malls and stroll! It’s so unfortunate that I don’t have time for that anymore. Not being with old friends also triggers my depression. I miss Hessel, Jhana, Pam…who else? Chary, Mary Jhon…EVERYONE who made me feel that Im special; that I’m good in making them laugh. I am now 23 and I tell u, i don’t enjoy living knowing that i’m getting older and older. In my mind and in my heart, I feel like I just turned 18! hehehe… I didnt have a normal teenage life. I didnt have the chance to go to night spots with my friends, i always stay at home, trying my best to obey my parent’s wishes. its okay, even if I hadnt had the chance to live a normal teenage life, yet im still thankful coz i have the best parents in town!!!